Watching with Closed Eyes

For all those
who, like me, walk through life with
closed eyes and rose-tinted glasses.
I'd like to think of them more like designer
sunglasses that hardly shield my eyes
from the harsh glare of the world,
but make me look fabulous anyway.
If I'm going to go through life
and all it has to throw at me,
I may as well look amazing doing it.
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I've been trapped here for awhile,
so I could use an ear.
I live for my music and
I am forever a slave to fashion.
When I dream, I dream out loud;
when I speak, I speak to myself.
...and so here we are.

Oh, sorry for late introductions. I'm michelle.

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tempted to write this on my exam.

tempted to write this on my exam.

chuck and blair.

chuck and blair.

one of the few things i need in life..

one of the few things i need in life..

i’m chuck bass. 

i’m chuck bass. 

double entendre :)

double entendre :)

my favourite scene photoshopped.i love this though, it’s gorgeous.though, i think the original works better. 

my favourite scene photoshopped.
i love this though, it’s gorgeous.
though, i think the original works better. 

the beginning.


B: Do you... like me?
C: Define like.
B: You have got to be kidding me. I do not believe this.
C: How do you think I feel? I haven't slept. I feel sick, like there's something in my stomach. Fluttering.
B: ..Butterflies?
B: Oh no no no, this is not happening.
C: No one is more surprised or ashamed than I am.
B: Chuck. You know that I adore all of God’s creatures and the metaphors that they inspire. But, those butterflies? Have got to be murdered.
i need a shirt like this.

i need a shirt like this.

chuck & blair.


Chuck: I love you.
Blair: I love you too... I don't expect you to wait...
Chuck: If two people are meant to be together, eventually they'll find their way back.
Blair: Do you really believe that...?
Chuck: I do.
Blair: So do I.
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chuck & blair.

I finally caught up to the latest episode of Gossip Girl. 
There’s so much that have gone on with other characters that’s actually interesting, but of course, Chuck and Blair are the only ones I really care about after all. So in this super long post, I’ll give you the back story— and then my thoughts. 

Spoilers for Season 3 and 4 (You’ve been warned)

So Season 3 ended with C having slept with J because B didn’t show up before the time limit that C gave her before he’d “close his heart off to her forever”. In his sadness, C + J = hardly legal sex, no regrets… or so he thought. B shows up at his apartment awhile later, after arriving late to the building and finding the flowers he was going to give her in the garbage. She tells him that she couldn’t go because Dorota, her maid, went into labour. She tells him that she was planning to go the whole time, and proves it with the flowers she picked out of the trash. So C is obviously ecstatic because it means that B still loved C all along. The only problem is… little J, in the bedroom. She stealthily leaves, and you might think that’s the end of it. Awhile later, C, with his wedding ring prepped, is about to propose to B— as was his original plan— and here comes lonelyboy to expose C. Lonelyboy is furious, C is in shock, J is crying, and B is just mortified. B banishes J. C tries to apologize and make excuses, but B doesn’t want to listen. B is heartbroken, and decides that she will leave C forever

When I watched this, I literally started crying. Chuck looked SO happy when he was taking out the wedding ring, and then just BAM, Dan comes and everything falls to pieces. I’m not saying Chuck was right to have done what he did even if he was heartbroken, but AH, it just sucks so hard. I think if I were in Blair’s shoes, I’d feel the same way, especially since Blair hated Jenny to begin with.. It’s like if Kevin slept with Lily because I broke his heart. I think I’d go crazy with sorrow. This was seriously depressing… 

So now we’re in Season 4. C, in his sorrow, wandered the streets, and got mugged. While being mugged, the thieves tried to take the ring, and C holds onto it with his dear life, begging to just let him keep the box. He ends up getting stabbed and he passes out. B is in Paris with S, and they’re trying to get over what happened last season. We now see C and he is saved by a woman named Eva. They are also in France and have grown super close because she loves him for him. UGH. Why are they so lovey dovey? Anyway, B sees C right before they leave. S seeks C and tells him to go home because he has responsibilities that he can’t leave— he can’t just “start over” and life can’t be like that. So C brings Eva back and introduces her to everyone as the person who changed Chuck Bass. B tries sabotaging them for “C’s sake”, even though it’s quite evident that she’s jealous and still loves him. 

Okay, sure, she’s a good person; sure, she looks for the best in everyone; sure, she’s not in it for the money— but STILL, how can you just FORGET someone you were going to propose to after one summer? Sure she broke your heart after you broke hers. But let’s face it, they’ve broken each others hearts many many times. They’ve been through so much. So much pain, so much hurt, so many tears, so many lies, so much gossip, so much drama— like they said before, was it really all for nothing? I was honestly furious every time I saw Eva and Chuck. I was furious that he was becoming a different person, not the Chuck Bass we know. The old Chuck Bass is better. I guess in the end, as Serena said, what’s important was that Chuck was happy— even if his happiness wasn’t close to what he had before.. 

So B successfully drives Eva out by framing her for having C’s passport in her suitcase (which would mean she knew who C was all this time and is using him). C believes B and gets mad at Eva. He finds out the truth, but it’s too late. Eva is leaving and tells him that he still loves B, despite all that has happened, and that they have an undeniable/unbreakable bond. (YAY!) C hates B now because she drove away his everything because of spite. He asks many times if B still loves him, and she denies everytime, saying that she could never love someone who has hurt her so. Official war between B and C starts now. And it’s honestly horrible to see two people who love each other at each other’s throats, maliciously. Even little J, who comes back for a day, makes the comment about them “You two used to be in love, and together, you were invincible. But now that you’ve turned against each other, it’s just a matter of time before your mutual destruction.” That night, B returns to her room, and C appears. They decide to call it a truce. They shake hands, and C grabs onto hers, with sadness in his eyes. She pulls away… Sadface :(! Anyway, tired of their antics and unwilling to see this happen again, S and N propose an official truce— with a peace treaty and everything. Yes, it’s an actual document to “end the war”. So for a long long time, they go through every “clause” and treaty to end the war! (P.S. No touching happens to be one of their clauses LOL) Anyway, lonelyboy and Eric try to sabotage them to teach them a lesson, and like FAIL horribly. We get to see B and C together in action again <3 ~!

I’m glad to see Blair and Chuck put their differences aside! I don’t know how much more I could stand seeing them against each other. It was hilarious when Dan tried to mess them up. His failure was the highlight of the episode— really. I was glad that Jenny said that. That SOMEONE finally pointed out that they used to be in love. That they used to be perfect and invincible together. I hate to be saying it, but thank you Jenny. 

B’s 20th birthday is coming up! In an attempt to sabotage B, lonelyboy (AGAIN) and Eric, as an unwilling accomplice, play an embarassing video of B doing karaoke. It turns out alright, because it was just her being silly. Either way, she thought it was C trying to sabotage her and gets pissed at him. They end up dissolving the treaty.. One thing leads to another. B and C succumb to their undeniable passion for each other (a.k.a. they have crazy sex… a billion times). They’ve longed for each other’s touch so much that they’re all over each other… everywhere. Even in public. They realize they have a problem LOL. C believes in ‘immersion therapy’ (aka having as much sex as possible in the next 24 hours), where as B begins her ‘avoid Chuck’ therapy. 

So I’m so excited to see that Blair and Chuck are checking again, even if it’s only because of their passion for each other. Though, it’s clear that they still have feelings for each other. Blair’s way too scared to admit it. She doesn’t want to get hurt anymore, so she pushes her feelings away. Fair enough… *Sigh… 

Thanks to N’s mom, B has a chance at becoming the new face of KC, but in order to do that, they want a woman who is empowered— aka without a man. Because men make women unempowered or some bullshit like that. Anyway, B makes it clear that she chooses her future over C; C also agrees that being with B isn’t good for his image as a hotel businessman, and they leave. When she sees that C sends for the restaurant to bring the food up to B, she decides to go, literally half-naked, to his party. 

Blair: Dorota’s distracting the board with Delucie’s cavatelli until I get back. 
[sighs] I heard what you said.
Chuck: What conversation are you referring to exactly?
Blair: Three one syllable words that, under the circumstances, you may or may not have meant. 
Chuck: Do you want me to have meant them?
Blair: If they were true, I would want to know. [silence] Of course. People do lose their rational thought during sex. They bark and scream out for God and their mothers. Well…I should get back to Anne.
Chuck: I meant it, Blair… with all my heart. You gonna say something this time?
Blair: I will. I mean… I do.

However, the three witches (Juliet, V, and little J) expose her to N’s mom, and B loses her chance to be the new face of KC. On the other hand, C’s rep comes and tells him that him being with B will actually boost his publicity and make his hotel more popular. Although B is stoked to be with C, she wants a future as a powerful woman. B decides to leave C until she is accomplished.

Blair: I followed my heart all last year and it led me nowhere. 
Now I need to follow my head.
Chuck: You don’t need to choose between them. Look at Brand and Angelina.
They take turns on top.
Blair: Yeah, but she won an oscar first. I’m sorry, but I have to be Blair Waldorf before I can be Chuck Bass’ girlfriend. 
Chuck: I love you.
Blair: I love you, too. I don’t expect you to wait.
Chuck: If two people are meant to be together, eventually they’ll find their way back. 
Blair: Do you really believe that?
Chuck: I do.
Blair: So do I. 

It’s the saddest thing that Blair and Chuck can’t be together. They’re both so prideful, always putting their feelings aside for their careers— which is a good thing, but they were able to do so well together in Season 3, while still being together. It’s still possible, Blair’s just too scared to admit it. I’m so happy that they’ve admitted to loving each other though, because they honestly really do have true love. The type that can survive through anything. So they’ll be able to survive through this as well. I can understand how Blair feels though. I felt that way too when I felt I was starting to use my identity as Michelle. I hope Blair is able to find herself soon… because as Chuck once said, “Next time you forget you’re Blair Waldorf, remember that I’m Chuck Bass, and I love you.” Sweetest thing ever, right? I swear, these two are so sweet, they’re perfect. I think I base my love life on theirs. Horrible, I know. If I had to pick a place as to where I was right now according to their love life. I’m back at the beginning of Season 4. Where Chuck could care less about Blair because he has Eva. That’s exactly where I am. Woo. And I totally get what Blair means when she says that people say things in times of passion that they don’t mean— because it’s true. Sad, but true. But yes, Chuck loves her. He was so happy when his rep told him that he could be with Blair again. His face honestly lit up. They’re love knows no bounds and is truly endless and timeless. I know this is just a TV show, but I really want a love like Chuck and Blair’s. I love how they’re just.. they always come back together. Even when it seems like it’ll be impossible for them. I mean Blair hardcore rejected him (Chuck really did eff up though), then Chuck got a new girlfriend he honestly told and showed off to the world about how she was the most wonderful thing that ever happened to him (poor Blair! Q—Q), then Blair goes and runs her out of town (YES! YOU GO GIRL!), then they war against each other and make each other lose things important to them— including academic success (I’d be pissed, he doesn’t even care about school!), and then they go back and forth between wanting to be together and not because of their careers and future. I know that in the end, they’ll find the balance. They always have. Chuck and Blair forever. <3